Sometimes they love each other so much it takes their breath away, and sometimes they don't - but while, at first, they had hated each other when they didn't love each other, now they still consider the other a precious gift never to be wasted, even when they argue.

regrets

its kinda late in the year, but i often regret choosing birmingham for uni. ive seriously considered leaving on multiple occasions. i like the people i work with and sometimes the course is really good. but i feel like quite alot of the tutors dont really know how to teach. and the practical things we learn whilst on shows is good but shows only make up 5/6 weeks of the year. and now we are heading into our final term - assessments are coming and i feel like they have been majorly dropped on us from nowhere. 1 of our assessments is 2nd week back and we dont have a brief for it to work on over easter. which means we will have a week to do it when we get back. on top of all our other work that we do know about.
so sometimes i think about leaving. and im not the only one. but we like each other and who wants to go through the awkward bit again?

realising the person you think of as youre best friend isnt actually your best friend anymore is weird. whenever we hang out its like it always used to be. except we know next to nothing about each others lives now

ive never had a problem letting myself down. theres no end to the how far id go or how hard il work to help someone out, but for my own benefit, i suppose i dont think im worth the effort

well ive been a little busy. just finished the musical on saturday (doing the get out untill 1.45am - yay) came home on sunday. london is the best place ever. why did i ever leave?
in other news me and my brother are trying to buy a house. well, probably a flat. and isnt house hunting just the most fun thing ever!? no. no its not

letters

the first thing i do when writing a letter is stamp and address so that i wont chicken out of actually writing (or sending) the thing. or if i do, that it costs me money. i hate to be wasteful

the last 20 minutes

ive just spent 20 minutes doing sit ups. i did 70. i think. i lost count but i definitely did at least 70. and by my calculations thats just over 17 seconds per sit up. although i didnt do them all in one go. i did 20 had a short rest. tried to do another 20 but stopped at 10 and had a longer rest. then i tried to do 20 again and i couldnt get past 18 so i had another long rest and then did 12. which, now i add them up is actually 80 all together which is 1 per 15 seconds. on average. i also bought a full length mirror today. cos im sick of trying to see what i look like in the one above my sink cos i have to stand on the toilet. and i have come so close to breaking my neck.