stressing in releation to my sexuality

i warn you now, this is not the most organised bunch of thoughts youll ever read. and i dont think i make my point very well. but that wasnt really the point. also, i get a bit ranty at the end

that is not something i do very often. or ever, really. its never been a problem for me or any of my friends. anyone who was bothered was probably someone i never gave a shit about anyway. but thats getting away from the issue ive had today. a girl on my course, id call her a friend, said she wouldnt go out with a bi girl. she said shed had bad experiences and wouldnt date one again. i was a little surprised at the time, a little shocked. hurt, outraged, pissed off. i dont know. but not good. and we talked about it for a while, i called her bi-phobic, and she mostly made it worse for herself. then she said if she met someone special who was bi, she might go out with her. isnt that what all dating is? you meet someone special and you date them. you dont date all the people who fit your gender + sexuality criteria. so now shes saying she would date a bi in the right circumstances i.e she fancies them enough, but still says she wouldnt date a bi generally. which i find fucking stupid.
this has been brewing in my head since lunchtime and im feeling worse about it now than i did then. i just cant believe that she would think like that, and think think theres nothing wrong with it. i like this girl. i consider her a friend. she says she doesnt have a problem with bi people, she just wouldnt date one. can she not see how twisted that is? even mare twisted by the fact that she would date one, so the prejudice she has is all in her head. god thats stupid, where else would it be? do you know what im trying to say? shes creating that fence herself, consciously. even though she admits that theres a gate.

also, this whole incedent is being exacerbated. i think its bringing up some bad memories. like people asking about my sexuality, me telling them im bi and then they say things like "yeah, but what are you really?" and "so when are you gonna decide?" or "i used to be bi, youll get past it eventually" im starting to think that shit got to me.
fuck this shit. im bi. im fine with that. ive always been fine with it. so has everyone i give a shit about. but fuck me if the couple of fuckers i meet along the way dont get to me. i fucking hate when people imply its a phase. i fucking hate that stupid look they give you that says 'of course you are dear'. i fucking hate when people roll their eyes cos heres another one, fucking with everyone cos they cant make up their stupid little minds. i hate the assumption that im not faithful, that if im with a guy for too long il miss girls and il start wandering. fuck you. fuck you all. fuck you motherfuckers.

i think that shit definitely got to me