Send home my long strayed eyes to me,
Which (Oh) too long have dwelt on thee.
John Donne

travel

these shoes have been to alcatraz

i want kids and i want them now!

irrationally speaking of course. rationally i know that im too young, too poor, too single and too living-with-my-parents. im also about to start university, which i hope will lead me straight into my career, which id like to do for a few years. there is also my relationship history - lets just say its unhealthy so, assuming i dont do it alone, id need a bit of practice there. and a million other reasons. but none of that stops my stupid irrational-mind yearning.
its incredibly frustrating though, wanting something so intently. as soon as i see a baby the feeling that i should have that rushes over me and its pretty hard to shake. and its not just babies, its any child under 6. and pregnant women. and puppies.

some awesome words

"...the truth is that privilege always lies with the majority. They're so used to being catered to that they see the lack of catering as an imbalance. They don't see anything wrong with having things set up to suit them, what's everyone's fuss all about? That's the way it should be, and everyone else should be used to not getting what they want..."
David Gaider

lies and the lying liars who tell them

i am jobless. yesterday i had a job. but i quit 2 weeks ago because i was pretty sure i had got another one. i havent. yet. might get picked up in the next intake. in 2 weeks. so im jobless. balls.

haircut

i got very nearly a foot cut off. i now have a bob. with a fringe. ive never had a fringe before.
i washed it for the first time this morning. good points - takes about 15 minutes less than it used to. bad points - i actually have to do stuff to it else it...doesnt work. and stay away from humidity cos frizz now has a major effect - it gets huge.
im sure il get used to it all

i think about what i eat which is probably for the best

i dont snack on slices of cheese anymore. i try not to have carbs for breakfast, lunch and dinner. although it does still take up the majority of my food intake - pasta, bread, pasta, potatoes and pasta. im aware that i probably should eat more protein. definitely more vegetables. that arent potatoes. i do ok on fruit, when we have any. i now snack on raisins. and i do need like to snack. usually when im bored. and i think thats my biggest issue. im always amazed by how little i think about eating when im working as opposed to when im not.
but im pretty sure i am hungry now so im going to make a sandwich. even though i had pasta for dinner. im mad like that