isolation

i fear that will be my biggest issue at uni. im living in halls. an hours walk from my campus (il be cycling, hopefully) and EVERYONE ELSE from my school is in houses with other people from my school. EVERYONE. that is not an exaggeration - when i told the accommodations officer that i had applied for halls he seemed so confused

that gay boy i had a crush on, that i stayed with for a few days, that was fun.

but im back at home, in london now. hooray! i move to birmingham in less than 3 weeks. shit.

so i have run off to aber for a few days. tis fun, hanging out with M. who i may or may not have a small crush on. seriously though, i dont know. i wouldnt say no though. but i am a slag. oh did i mention hes a big gay? so chances are this will never become an issue.
why do i tell the internet this?
and this doesnt change anything about the girl. although im pretty much decided on not going there. what with the moving to birmingham thing - its probably not worth it is it?
what else have i done? i got drunk last night. fun. we had a picnic today. fun.
oooo and im getting a bike! yay!

less than 5 weeks till uni

and i dont have anywhere to live yet. i applied 2 months ago. whaaaaa

the girl

so the girl knows that i like her. which isnt to say i told her - she asked a mutual friend - but she knows. probably. which means it might be getting to the point where i may actually have to do something about this, or forever hold my peace. and im not good at doing something about it. but also, another friend of mine made a very good point - im moving to birmingham for uni in a 6weeks. do i risk a friendship that im happy with for something that would turn long distance, or even end, so soon? or do i leave it, gtf over it, and keep a friend?

the girl is fairly new to openly (or secretly) dating girls. i dont know how new. but fairly. the mutual friend (who has known the girl for over 10years) doesnt know what her type is but to be fair, i dont really think the girl does either. but then i dont really believe in types

best wedding ever

the new mr and mrs got married yesterday. i wasnt at the actual ceremony, didnt hear the speeches, but the pub bit was awesome sauce. although my toe still hurts from the stupid shoes i wore. that i danced in. jump on it!

the show

and so its finally over. well, the show finished on saturday night and the get out on sunday but ive mostly been enjoying doing bugger all for a few days. twas quite nice.

went out clubbing on saturday for the girls birthday. somewhere far to expensive for me to drink and so far to expensive for me to even think about trying anything. also a couple of her friends came and her little sister and i dont know if they know so wasnt gona do anything that might be awkward for her. so apart from the longing and the soberness, it was a good night. she had a little nap on me on the way home. which was nice.

also had a hen do on sunday night. cos two of my friends are getting married which is ridiculous - we are 20! but apart from the wtf weirdness, its cool. theyve been together for like 5 years and lived together for at least 2. so it shouldnt be too surprising or unusual. but its still a little weird. i dont feel old enough or responsible enough for that.

my brother graduates tomorrow. english and film with a first. w00t